The Self Centered Disease - a work in process

Self centered. Pro or Con? It depends which intention lead you to have followed this avenue.

Self improvement/Self reliance. Sovereignty is an idea, not a reality. At what point did the average human cease to recognize the entire picture, the BIG picture? Is there a point in this history of man that defines this moment? Where some other worldly experience provided us some knowledge, seemingly not any other species though, that we are better off alone? That that is possible, even greater than to be a part of a whole?

Take for instance the idea that self improvement is achievable through self centering. The entire history of human existence will teach you that the wisest and most peaceful of mankind were anything but self centered. For example, Ghandi or Mother Theresa. Their spiritual journey was based on recognition of the whole of not just humanity, but other creatures as well. Take also EVERY other organism into account, every other but humans that is, and 99% if not more of the time you will find absolute faithfulness to the idea of community, in the sense that one is required for the other, and it just IS. Not in the sense that each piece is separate. The age old savage behavior of animals is what has recently gone missing from humankind. A Swan will stand for his mate, devour to survive, and lead a simple life, albeit secure. Clearly acting only his own feeling and instinct and knowledge, rather than any other swans. Yet in this behavior there is a never ceasing harmony.

PT II

Self Centered. A disease. Characteristics? Delusions of grandiosity and self sufficiency, whilst behaving ONLY for ones own good, rather than the good of all. OR, may be characterized by acting and behaving out of concern for what the other diseased human would do, rather than identifying ones own values and instincts and desires. In essence, instinct is what makes us whole.

Though it is true that each has a different desire, specifically, it has become the norm to DENY these based on fear of what the rest of the herd will think. This is a disease, one which is epidemic to the very nature of what makes us human. It means to deny what can salvage what is left of our kind.

People with the disease initially are of the belief that they are separate from the whole, that they must honor themselves at all costs. What seems like a fabulous theory excludes the reality that without the whole pie, there is no piece. In mans ever increasing to find himself, the disease leads him further astray. True self centeredness can be described as this: acting upon what the conceived notion is that the whole community would prefer. And in doing so, this provides initial feelings of fitting in and being a part of. It also mean that the person becomes unaware of what their actions are really going to result in, ultimate destruction. This is true because to act on REAL self worth is to follow instinct and be true to it at all costs. This is a characteristically animal behavior. To be honest to self, rather than absorbed in self centered paranoia and delusion, is to command power. It is to command respect. It inevitably brings the whole pie back together through acting as what one is, another part of a large picture made up of "individual" and instinctual animals. Here is a metaphor: The Moon never tells the Sun, it's opposite and it's balancing companion, that it will not rise for it has to journey into discovering itself and, besides, Jupiter told it not to. The Moon faithfully rises as the Sun sets, despite what its been told, because it recognizes it's purpose is to be in harmony, however different from the Sun it is, and that without it filling it's commitment the rest of the planetary system would surely suffer. If the Moon did not rise the Sun would surely burn out and eventually fade away.

PT III

Symptoms:

-behaving according to another, despite what is right

-delusions of being a part of

-inability to recognize one's own values/desires

-inability to have faith that acting on instinct commands respect

-withdrawn behaviors such

-self indulgent behaviors precipitated by:

Side effects:

-low self esteem

-anxiety stemming from not being able to please everyone

-lack of decision making skills

-depression

-isolation

-separation from the community

True self awareness is to recognize what ones real wants are, and to honor those, for the knowledge that those are instinctual. They make us human. They also make us part of the bigger picture because anyone will tell you, people pleasing only causes more suffering, and in suffering we create our own demise. What would the REAL you do? To command respect is to lead your own journey, and know that the real members of your community will follow suite. Harmony.

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