Phoenix Rising Pt. 2

Follow me like a soldier in the night, leaving me on the trail left behind..I came back for you this last time, and I laid in waiting afraid to speak for it might draw out your weapons, you're always so ready to fight. I watched for many months now, waiting to hear a kind word, and every word I said was for you, but nothing slipped your lips, no..only someone else's story, how was I to know which words to say when every other word was how I'm failing, in your eyes. Yet I knew all the while I was slowly growing back my wings. I knew all the while, see, I knew I'd make it even though the one didn't believe me, I kept on fighting through the scars and stones and the ignorant who tried so hard to sway us , You didn't believe in me...but I got all the hope I need. From the stars in the sky and the breeze at night, I got tears and laughter and pictures and joy, from the world I watch unfold around me, I am finally seeing, that I'm just enough, this person that is Jessie, even if you don't believe in her. I have all the little joys which light my days like torches in the dark. All the while I was willing to watch you as you fight your demons and, all the while I believed in you, all the while I was right there beside you, ready to aid you, cos I believe in you, you just didn't see me. so...take your armor, cos I see through it...and take your legion, cos I don't need them...I'm a Phoenix always burning, but always rising again, I'm a sole bird flying, the wind is all I need to lift me, and I still believe despite you, that I am worthy. The Phoenix doesn't worry what stones the ignorant are casting, she just keeps on believing. That's what comes when you know that what anyone says makes no difference, when you're willing to stand even though the crowds are pulling you apart, I've made mistakes I know, but I believe in redemption, if I didn't make mistakes I know I'd never have a way to grow...so really, That was no soldier beside me, it was a blind man I tried to show the real me...but see, you can't lead the blind to the light very easily, it takes strength and loyalty and still you don't believe ... I stood on the other side, watched you burn that bridge down in the night, and I offered a wing to rest on if you wanted to cross, some solace if you gave up the invisible fight,though my wings are tired and aching, still healing from the last fire. Now I know I can not carry you, or anyone else on my breeze, and I don't want what anyone has, you see, I want what's down my own path, the one in my dreams that I see and touch, every night I smell and feel it, and every day I get closer to its being. Don't let outward scars fool you, my insides are stronger and inside I am a queen. so take your armor and lay it down, cos you never needed it... there was never a battle, it all depended on how one sees things, sometimes the one you think is the enemy is really your best friend, and sometimes even they disappear in the end. Every time there is a fire in the sky, every time it's pink and orange and alive, that is me shining bright still flying on, still winding along the breeze, still fighting for me, to the end of days, fighting the good fight despite myself, despite the others, whether there be ground to stand on or beauty to be seen, there will always be a new day, and that is worth saving.